Today

10 years ago today I was in college and I was dating this guy who would later join the Navy after flunking out of college the second time.
7 years ago today I was working at the alternative school and probably having more fun in my "early 20s" than I should have been
6 years ago today I had just become engaged
5 years ago today Tim and I got married
4 years ago today Tim and I went out to dinner alone for the first time since we had Abby. I remember being very self conscience of my post baby jelly body
3 years ago today I have no idea what I was doing
1 year ago today I was hugely pregnant with Eleanor
Today has been a weird day. Tim and I are celebrating our 5th wedding anniversary. Although today is the actual day we (I) decided to "celebrate" tomorrow by dropping the ladies off at their Grandmas' houses. (We still have yet to decide who gets who. I am leaning toward Tim's mom taking the baby because my mom doesn't do well with infants) We have yet to make plans that include anything other than cleaning out our basement, and I think we are ok with that. We will get to sleep in and not have to go to be wondering if it will be a full night of sleep or one riddled with bad dreams, drinks of water, teeth or the always wonderful throwing up. This sounds like heaven to us, but there are a few things that are distracting us from our celebration.
First of all I am weaning Nora as we speak and although she doing quite well I am a wreck. I don't know if I just didn't notice the engorgement with Abby or what but I am noticing it now which makes me think that I am weaning her too soon. This sends me into a shame spiral for whatever reason about the formula I give her, and I can;t help but feel like I am gypping her out of 22 days of nursing (I was planning on stopping on her 1st birthday, but I stopped on new year's day instead).
Along with my engorgement (that really is the only word for it, and although it is not horrible it is noticeable which necessitates a word for it, hence engorgement, which borders on offensive, but it is just descriptive) we have another new development on the kid front and that is that Nora has started to take steps. She gets about 2 in then falls down, but she is really learning to walk. This is amazing to me since Abby started walking a bit later (after her first birthday).
We have also had a plumbing emergency today which has involved a large amount of icky black goo coming up from our drain in the basement. I can't do laundry (boohoo) until it gets snaked out, so of course I did what I always do when we have a plumbing emergency, I called Tim2. Actually I didn't just call him I stalked him because Tim1 (my Tim) started talking about moving the toilet which always scares me and Tim2 can either talk Tim1 out of that or give him a better way of doing it that doesn't involve moving the toilet.
Tim2 won't be coming to fix our plumbing anytime soon.
Apparently he was involved in a serious car accident earlier this week on the expressway. It is all so gross, the pictures so graphic, that I am choosing to ignore it for today.
But it still really sucks.